deep seas deep sleep

sleepless nights and restless thoughts clound my mind
dark circles have maid a permanent shade on my skin
eyes bloodshot and scorned are they mine
who will i meet tonight in my dreams
are they real or is insanity at bay
lost in delusions, or swimming it the unseen?
in these deep oceans sometimes i wish there was an island in my grasp
grounding and stable
but only deep seas and  deep sleep

wonderland in my hand

you want in my head, ill let you in 
i hope you shall survive
and be the first to look into my third eye
so ill let you go for a walk
down the yellow brick road
stop by wonderland
and have a cup of mad hatters tea
swim in tea cups and try not to flee
sea side slumber
one man wonder
feeling crazy, a little hazy
ask and you shall receive
i'm no God
so don't put me up as one
you want sweet then ill throw skittles at your head
and you can taste the fucking rainbow
go deeper you've just started peeling back the layers
rip off my skin i don't mind
 i'm a chameleon of many kinds
pick your face and wear it with taste
or you'll just be another waste
lost in wonderland without a trace

what wolf will i feed

God help me

this animal inside me 

it eats away at my soul

soaked in rage

on edge and unhinged 

i can feel my blood boiling

i am about to snap

God help me 

i don't wan't to hurt these people 

they have not met my demons 

though they poke me over and over

brush it off and keep moving i tell myself

don't feed the evil wolf just feed the good one

but they feed the evil one while my head is turned!!

what shall i do to keep from falling

once the lights are out in my mind

there is no controlling the animal inside

death will be near my dear

the wolf is starving

just waiting for its next meal.

cheating death

smoldering flesh soaked with nectar
cringe at the black crow that surrounds my bones
cotton mouth and sand in between my toes
every step deeper into this desert
the storm is coming
death simmers at my door
do i open the door
or be no more
death is not the end but the beginning of beginnings
invincible ill take the leap
open the door and sleep
sleep sleep sleep............

two souls becoming one

safe in your eyes is where my soul lay down
deep oceans of gray spiral down and cave in
curves of soft pastels and ink lay beneath your cherry
slippery rocks on mountaintops water falls off your skin like tear drops
succulent blossoms encase my being
i could not ask the sun that sees all the earth to gaze upon a deeper beauty
 o how could i not love that which by definition is love
 breathless and shaking
warmth of your skin overcoming my emotions are raw
you've seen my soul and i yours
nothing more is needed
knowingly our souls are bleeding
encompassed by earth sleep is needed

beneath cloaked eyes

his eyes they seize the souls of many
possessed there trust is unconditional
but beneath those cloaked eyes are lies
he is a predator with the best disguise
madman is what was found
silent screams of a world unseen
final drips at the end of a bottle
blitzed to keep another kind of demon at bay
drug induced and sleepwalking
never knowing what could have been
this man was once a boy
his soul is tattered and worn
never really had a chance
the darkness seeped threw every vein
capturing what little light was left
only leaving the eyes behind
to live only threw another life
these eyes they have seen many
nights and days of uncontrollable hate
blood boils beneath the surface
itching to find a way out
these demons lurk
the corners of my mind are of the darkest places
my souls fight over the prize
that is to been seen threw these eyes
these eyes of mine

the bottom of the abyss

crunching charcoal
swimming in turpentine
wishing of ways
ways to keep the darkness at bay
flipping threw memories
my own personal database
i am filled with wonder of how i make it threw this slumber
chilled heart
burning mind
no more fear of the darkness
acceptance is needed
forgiveness i bleed it
restless and screaming
bound and clinging
hoping i don't fall off into the abyss
in the middle of my mind
at the bottom
all will be lost
sanity no longer will be mine

soundless screams

free breeze around me

slowly unleashing the soul within 

do not try to capture it

restless souls can be hazardous 
sleepless nights 
unhinged apparitions 
black and blue 
 stands over me waiting
soundless screams capture the deep corners of my mind
 slowly inhaling my vitality
keeping sanity now is arduous
reality has become fuzzy
let me be
release me 

WAKE UP

WAKE UP!
from your slumber
blind eyes
blood filled numbers
WAKE UP!
to a sound
realization
the sound of numbers
WAKE UP!
to a march
enraged soul
desire of hearts
WAKE UP!
wild fire
sound of horses
unstoppable stamp 
WAKE UP!
change the pace 
save this race
a new slate 

koi fish beauty

a single beauty
koi fish
swimming threw dense water
deep blue sea
thunderous ocean
uncharted water
black and blue
break time needed
gray eyes now
blood shed
no matter how beautiful
this koi fish
thrown into a pool of sharks
color blind and hungry
no chance of life
swim fast
hit a wall
swim faster
run out of breath
they circle in
only way to survive is to be broken
where the skin of a shark
underneath is beauty
skin deep
no not this time

beloved perilous

searching for what once was life
breath of fresh air
dark eyes and sunlight soul
i can't get you out of my mind
your face fills my dreams
to love and not be know
my soul aches for your touch
if only once
sleep i see you
dream i know you
live to keep you
itching to feel the magnitude of desire
until we meet my soul sleeps
leaping at the chance to grasp your skin
taste your sweet lips
stay with you in solitude
love at first sight
i can only hope for a veracious witness
but one only has to look into my eyes to see truth
my beloved perilous

mother natures eyes

sun shining down
breeze running threw my sleeves 
heart beating fast as i run threw these trees
free?
could it be me?
soul showing 
naked no shame 
slow down
hit the ground
the grass hugs my skin 
i feel this earths heartbeat 
beating like a drum we become one
this mud is my blood 
look threw mother natures eyes 
can you see it when she cry's
i close my eyes for a minute and i loose my beat
buildings tower over me this ground is not my friend
i listen and hear nothing
no heart beat to be found 
smoke fills are lungs and they stand high on there pedestal of mind
blinded by a certain kind of green that makes them mean
come down 
it must be so lonely
living up that high
but they cant even see the sky
darkness sweeps threw the air
breaking what once was trust
mother don't be sad 
i to am going mad
run!
back to the place where we first began 
we are not so far away
from seeing her wrath 
she does fight back
with the fury of a woman on fire 
sleep ever so peacefully my friend 
for we are on the right team
we will win in the end 

always with you

If I’m not here I’m there
 But I’m always with you
Look deeper into yourself and find the soul of one
You and me we are one.
 A flower grows and dies all at once
 A sequence of beauty
Beauty in life
Beauty in death
 Cycle of souls unleashed to me
 Bring me love and love I will.
The abyss is far and wide
 The core leads to others
Find them there and keep them near
The lovers of lovers,
 See without sight
 Bring me back to where we first met
 I’ll stay in my coma with you forever.

parallel lines

Two parallel lines
The universe is never ending
 A knowledge that goes on and on
 We can never stop learning
 A tree grows and on the surface its growing stops
 But the roots go deep in different directions Connecting to other growth
 A circle of connections
 Always connecting and growing together
 Peel back the layers of earth
 And see the roots in you

heart like a lion

Unforgivable? No! Life is only for a moment Flashes of lightning are seen in a blink of an eye living inside the box will eat away at my soul Kindhearted and gentile Try to see threw my eyes if only for a moment Speak only if spoken to walk this way talk this way Do as I say don't think for yourself that would be to much to handle No! I refuse to be a robot A heart like a lion The spirit of an eagle flying is the only way I know how to be So just let me be be me my love is forever Heart as light as a feather Fear is only fear

love is never ending even in the darkest of places

your ripping out my heart
after you have already set the flame
your going to burn yourself my dear
so go on and take that walk of shame
torched soul walk down this shameful road
i cry tears of blood rivers
my heart is screaming out let these people go
but no they pump them with the sickness they call medicine
it reeks of death here in this loathsome jail
trapped away in a state of unconsciousness
take away this pain they scream
o God i see you weep
just when i think there is no hope
i step outside and hug this big oak
breath deep
air taken for granted
let it swim threw your lungs
smell the sweet dew melting in the summer heat
and i see
o how i see your love
spreading everywhere and everyone you touch
as i walk back in there is a silence
a certain kind of remedy
and i send my energy
passing threw each hospital room
your love covers
healing what once was sorrow

forever love

Forever love


Eat my soul with it's tasteful melody
speak forever of serenity 
get lost with me for eternity
i ache for the touch of your iris
wonders of stars go threw my veins like ships from uncharted waters 
blink once and loose a lifetime 
never dream of less than forever 
grasp onto my lungs and send me high sky flying 
behind heaven just a background 
left walking alone on a cold road i hear the whispers of mountain monsters
covering half of the jokers face laughing with ignorance of power 
your senses return to there natural wonder within her soul is the sunlight
a shooting star threw the moonlight brings me back down and crashes
forever within your ashes of ashes